I’ve heard this word being said every other day for the past two weeks and I wonder, if you’re truly selfless, would you talk about how selfless you are? And if you genuinely care about the needs and welfare of others before your own, would you be mad at them for not doing the same for you?
A few people have been singing this song and I’ve tried to memorise the lyrics but I can’t. It’s one of those songs you can jive to at first listen but once you realise its meaning, you don’t want to play it ever again. Like Cannibal Corpse songs.
Flaws are inevitable, I understand. But you can, however, control the negativity you release unto the world. The people around you. Even to yourself.
I haven’t been feeling the greatest this week; there’s a lump in my throat, the kind you get when you’re guilty of something. And I couldn’t for the life of me think of why I’d be feeling this way; what am I guilty of doing? And I realise why now.
There have been a lot of reminders of the person I use to be and I hate it. I think it’s unfair for anyone to quickly place emotions under the negative umbrella. I feel incredibly conflicted when someone preaches about being true to yourself and sticking to your own morals, but disagrees with your personal choices. I know hypocrisy is in all of us but I do my best to keep that part of me as inactive as possible but that was not the case this week.
I feel guilty.
We spend way too much time condemning another person to the point where we don’t see how ugly we’ve become. Misunderstandings that can be fixed quite easily are blown out of proportion because apparently we enjoy feeling conflicted even though we go on and on about not wanting to be “part of the drama”.
I think it’s time to redecorate because this room is starting to suffocate me.
concerned more with the needs and wishes of others than with one’s own; unselfish: an act of selfless devotion.